moving on.

DEATH
a good friend once said:
"when i die, i don't want people to remember my death and be sad.... instead, i want them to be happy that ive been in their lives and move on. i dont want people sad and crying because of me."
i was appalled at this statement.
it was simple, yet quite contradictory to the standard belief of death.
it was the most SELFLESS thing i've heard him say EVER.


why does death have to be sad?
why can't it be happy?
not happy as in the comical, "i enjoyed my best friend's death happy."
but more like a .... "I'm happy and glad that i had you in my life, and i will never forget you."

people these days seem to think that DEATH IS a SAD thing.
truth is: everyone dies.
it's not something i'm obviously proud of, but FUCK IT.
its the goddamn truth, and people seem to deny that.
and personally, i think it's somewhat selfish that people want others to be sad, depressed, and crying because of their death.
i'm not saying that i want people to be happy and jumping off the walls because i died, but more as a vague happy-sad reminiscing feeling.
i want people to think "she was a good friend, or she was special."

CUTTING
something that i've wanted to do for a long time
ive tried, yet i resisted.
cause i know what's good for me and what's bad for me.

"Death is easy, life is hard. Don't take the easy way out"

i've always looked up to this quote whenever i had suicidal thoughts.
and now im referring it to cutting.
cutting is a temporary relief.
like pain-killers.
drugs.
cigarettes.
alcohol.

things that you see on the show Intervention.
cutting is JUST as bad as the ones above.
it will get you NO WHERE IN LIFE.
and when you're older and wiser, you'll look at those ugly scars on your wrists and regret every little "relief" that you've had.
think about it LONG TERM.

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have fun with your journey to happiness, maddy.
and others that this could of applied to.
Good luck.