Fuck it.

I just need an outlet; a haven.
I'm too lazy to write in a journal, and it seems I'm too busy for anything these days.
Besides the usual: sleep, school, homework, go on the computer.
jesus, get some motivation danbi.
i have so much to get off my chest, but i feel like i need to hold back.
my feelings have been suppressed for too long.... and honestly, i'd rather be over-emotional human being than be a fucking soul-less ghost roaming this planet.

i don't have any friends i could talk to.
my "BEST" friends always insulting me if i try to talk to them.
saying i complain about life, or i'm too pessimistic.
well, fucker(s), this is HOW I'M FEELING.
i can't help how i feel, and it's no good to hold my feelings inside, but i guess i have no other choice.
someone had said that a GOOD friend will always be there for you whether you're going through bad times or good times.
Not just the bad times. or just for the good times.
This is so true, and I TRY and TRY to be a good person and to be there for my friends, but it's so fucking hard when they don't acknowledge what i'm trying to do and don't return the favor.


fucking people these days.
i don't trust anyone these days.
i've been hurt so many times by people, while trying to be the best person i could be.
i'm constantly hurt by my "trusted" friends.
I'm sick of trying to be friends with anyone.
i guess you could call me anti-social.