the good and the bad

ever had that sinking feeling after you take a nap?

that's how i feel everyday.

but...

on some days, i just feel........

normal.

i hate when i'm depressed, but i can't help it.

it's either my brain or hormones, but it's hard to look at which.

i wasn't really depressed today but there are times when you have fun, or when you have that sinking feeling.

for example: today i felt pretty nice until lunch; that's when i had that sinking feeling again.

nick has been getting on my nerves lately.

lmaooo everyone's just like "NOW U THINK HES GAY?" or... "NOW U THINK HES ANNOYING?"

still, he's aight, i guess.

and some other days, i feel like going to highschool will save me from this hell hole.

and on other days, i feel like staying in jordan will prevent me from getting older, and having to take life and school a LOT more seriously.

my brother's been pressuring me to make good grades in high school, but i still want my freedom and time.

Ed asked me the question: why do you think we fall in love?

i honestly couldn't answer.

i was speechless.

then i gave a lame excuse:

"oh, well... it's like crying. you don't know why you do it, but you just DO."

here's my "deep answer:"

if there is a god, then he would of realized how fucked up this world is.

and therefore he created a thing.

a magical thing, we humans, like to call love.

he tried to balance the bad and good.

so therefore:

he created a strong intense emotion called love to balance the horrible, terrible shit that goes on in the world.

and it doesn't necessarily have to be about FALLING in love, but you could love your mom, dad, best friend, etc.

-Zombie